The everyday Decay — Superficiality & Sluggishness.
Complaining—aargh…
Whenever I am not home, I am forced to notice the sluggish, decaying, and superficial nature of everything.
Transport is so slow. For long distances, both trains and cars really suck! Could you imagine driving 30 minutes back and forth every day? That is a whole hour gone misused. Oh, and believe me, one definitely drains not just an hour.
Conversations are superficial. When was the last time I had a deep, meaningful conversation with someone? (Oh, and if you posed this question to yourself and could answer it, then the pre-last time?) I go to school and I just can’t bear all the talking-to-a-brick-wall conversations. Not mine, I hope–at this point, I stopped trying to initiate conversations and even small talks in favor of just walking around, staring at some works of art, nature, outside the window, and even walls (-- yes, staring at walls is sometimes more enjoyable than some conversations I’ve overheard)! It’s definitely the conversations that I overhear that drain my soul so much. I think it’d be pretty fun if people around me didn’t talk; we would just stare at each other and smile & laugh. Isn’t that more amusing?
All processes are sluggish and slow. Apps do not work. Are you, Dear Reader, not convinced? How complex could one’s school-timetable-showing app be, and what does it do for it to contain bugs that prevent it from working? When I was 12, during the COVID lockdowns, I coded a website like that of my own, so the people in my class could see our schedule and the homework we were given. What was its uptime, pray tell? 100%. A twelve-year-old kid—not even a teenager—programmed a more reliable solution than a team of professional developers: with an admin panel, a database, authentication & authorization, ability to add homework, comments, and all other needed things. What is the concrete excuse to produce anything but reliable software?
Apologies for my complaints, but I am thus debilitated. Other apps are terribly slow as well! Everything’s carelessly sloppy.
One’s best choice is to be isolated right now: hydrated, moisturized, and flourishing in one’s own lane. (Or lead change on one’s own.)
✨ Creating ✨ (regardless of what that seems to mean; here: opposite of “consuming”) is definitely making me better right now. Can only speak favorably of doing so.
- Nihad Badalov